Saturday, January 22, 2011

What a beginning..

Well My new year as started out JUST great...I have been Miserable, barely worked, lost my job gained a new job, behind on bills and lets see...umm did I mention I have been MISERABLE???? Ohhh and lets not forget my expeditions broke down....anything else?? AND I eat like a horse! I REFUSE to give up...I have been thinking of leaving that job for a long time but I guess this situation just pushed me a long...I dont know why I feel so betrayed but I DO like I REALLY do...I can't say that I will miss the job because I started to just HATE the owner. I dont like when others look down on me like I am a nobody! I guess thats what happens when you work with afamily in their but WHATEVER, Like I said in my post...this smile will be back on my face and I will be FINE I thinks that he THOUGHT this would bring me down but it takes more then that to do that, After 10 YEARS of Hell and 10 years of consent will take MORE then On
On a BETTER note, my rescue Chewey is doing amazing..I know I write so little when I do write about things someone reading this would have NO idea but Long story short, he is a rescue and doing amazing! Just look at his lil face is he not the Cutest lil puppy in the world.... I think I am borderline animal hoarder, If it were left to me, I would have a farm with LOTS of animals :)
I have GOT to find a place where I can find some peace, I am struggling so much emotionally lord knows I dont want it to affect my health. My weight ect. I have noticed my eating patterns have changed and I just dont want that for me anymore...guess I will go

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year, Bad beginnings

WHY WHY WHY do I always feel so Lonely? I mean is that seriously normal? Is there anyone out there who reallyyy UNDERSTANDS who I am and What I want? I guess thats were I plan to start, first New Years was just that, A new friggin year NOTHING special at all...When in the world did I become so boring taht all I do is sit and watch Geys anatomy and pittle around on the computer...WOW kind of sucks. I am thinking I should start my new diet this week, I have been putting it off but I think its time. Plan to start that Stat!

I picked up a rescue, wow he is a handful. He was ALMOST ready to be put to sleep. I hope that I done the right thing, I think sometimes I allow my heart to speak before I think about it. He seems to be in good shape but NOW I have 5 dogs and 2 cats and NONE which I am willing to part with, OHH Gawd thats just NUTS! Now Look at that lil face could you turn it down??? we call him papaw because he is older but such a blessing. I felt he deserved a chance...I may not be much But I am his new mommy.....
I am gonna try not to have a miserable lonly eveing but who knows..considering my husband has been in bed since 11:00am and its now 4pm and thats just kills me, How can one man be so lazy??? uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg Ok have a great day