New Year, Bad beginnings

WHY WHY WHY do I always feel so Lonely? I mean is that seriously normal? Is there anyone out there who reallyyy UNDERSTANDS who I am and What I want? I guess thats were I plan to start, first New Years was just that, A new friggin year NOTHING special at all...When in the world did I become so boring taht all I do is sit and watch Geys anatomy and pittle around on the computer...WOW kind of sucks. I am thinking I should start my new diet this week, I have been putting it off but I think its time. Plan to start that Stat!

I picked up a rescue, wow he is a handful. He was ALMOST ready to be put to sleep. I hope that I done the right thing, I think sometimes I allow my heart to speak before I think about it. He seems to be in good shape but NOW I have 5 dogs and 2 cats and NONE which I am willing to part with, OHH Gawd thats just NUTS! Now Look at that lil face could you turn it down??? we call him papaw because he is older but such a blessing. I felt he deserved a chance...I may not be much But I am his new mommy.....

I am gonna try not to have a miserable lonly eveing but who knows..considering my husband has been in bed since 11:00am and its now 4pm and thats just kills me, How can one man be so lazy??? uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg Ok have a great day

Nighty Night

Not a Very good day today, as far as my diet goes, I done pretty good there but, the day seem to just go on and on, and when I got home had to listen to michael bad mouth my diet...I think that I might just lay down earily tonight..The dogs are ok, as far as dinner, I had a can of soup and 6 cracker, drank water of course...I guess its just been to long of a day for me...Funny when people seeing you starting to do good they come out, got a note from umm lets just say and old friend...instead of wishing me luck on my diet she was more concerned about me being "unhappy" Let me make this clear to anyone who reads this Blog...#1 I am FAR from un-happy, TRUE I am not happy with the situation with my husband and I, everybody knows that & True I am not happy at my current weight, however I have peace inside, I can do this with or with out support...I am a strong woman who knows what she wants, I want to live a healther lifestyle and sure, that will take some time BUT I am willing to put into it what I have to...My weight loss has NOTHING to do with my husband or anyone else...It has to do with doing something for myself that will make me a healthier and in the end I will be a much happier person. My siatuation will not always be like this, I have made change this far I am sure that I will continue to change, and change what I have to along the way...if that makes sense. I just feel there is a time for everything and until then I will just make myself happy..I am sorry that I am rambling on, it just upset me & hurt me.