Good Morning

So Yesterday was interesting, after a GREAT day without my boss...I went to the gym, I thought it was for an orientation however, it turned out to be VERY encouraging and I meet with a couple of trainers....they gave me a routine that I think I will enjoy. I also learned more information on how to properly use some of the machines. It was GREAT BUT I felt CRAZY because after all this working out I wasn't properly using the machine lol...Whatever Guess I know now..Didn't get home until late. Woke up this morning to Breakfast in bed from my husband which was VERY nice (2 egg whites on toasted bread) Started a new book but can't seem to get into it like I did my last one...Jemma J will be hard to beat...It was such a GREAT book...Guess I better get up and get dressed for work...

What a Beautiful Ride...

I am seriously SOOO behind however, Mainly because so much has happened in my life the past couple of years sooo I will try to start OVER and keep up with my blog. I have been reading SOOO many and getting all involved in other peoples blogs that I just don't have time sometimes...I finally joined a Gym...my weight loss journey is on the move again and I am doing better now then I ever thought possible!!! I work out 6 days a week, I have had my job for a long while now and its going GREAT, I have been trying to get a couple negative people out of my life and its working out and I have found the time to sit and read some GREAT Chick Lit novel that's I am excited about...Is life PERFECT..HELL no BUT I am moving in a positive direction which I am very proud of... ONE thing I can say is, life is a mountain...you spend all your time climbing and climbing TRYING to be what you want, doing things you enjoy and next thing you know your at the top...only to fall again BUT...Thats what makes it interesting... I feel the older I get the STRONGER I get..I have attached a NEW photo of me..When I started this I was back at a CRAZY number..Ok Here we goo....
Diet started (Third Time) on 6/30/2010 - Weight was 228.6 ( Yeahh I know higher then the first time I tried to lose weight!!!!) 7/7/2010 - I was amazed that I was able to STOP MOST of my bad habits ( Eating out, Soft Drinks, Sweets etc ) on 7/7 I lost 9.6 pounds! I was like YES amazing! 7/14- lost 5.6 pounds, Then on 7/21 got disappointed because I only lost 2 POUNDS :( BUT that motivated me to work harder at my goal and on 8/2/2010 I lost 6.6 pounds!!! For those of you keeping up...Thats 21.6 Pounds!!!!! Working out, I mainly do cardio and read chick lit books lol BUT its great... I am really enjoying seeing the progress which makes it worth while to spend 1 hr and a half at the gym a day! Soo I am committed for life as far as I am concerned...There are a couple more changes that need to be made BUT I will get there, I have learned alot about myself this time..I have determination and that's what it takes

Weigh IN

My diet started again on June 30, 2010 I dont remember the exact weight so I will post when I find out tomorrow... I can however say that I have done well on my eating.. I will start with today because I dont remember the other days Lunch/Breakfast Cantaloupe dinner a 210 calorie meal and snack was cucumbers not 1200 calories but close I ate alot of cantaloupe. Anyway I have done VERY well with the weekend.. went to a festival and ate a couple bits off a hot dog and a couple bits of potatoes and that was it!!!!!!!!!!!! Normally I would have went crazy eating!!! I went to the store and as much as I WANTED fatty food ended up getting NOTHING BUT fruit and veggies and LOW calorie meals for my lunch

wow Cant sleep..

Ok this hasnt happened in a LONG time... Its 3am and I am awake...I know thats a side affect of the medication OHH NOOO I hate when I cant sleep I am always so miserable the next day...I done well on my diet today didnt drink any soft drinks, didnt eat more then 1500 calories..I think I done well..

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Healthy Weight Loss and Dieting: How to Lose Weight and Keep It Off

Healthy Weight Loss and Dieting: How to Lose Weight and Keep It Off

Karma...

Soo seems HE is on a mission again to make me fail, to make me miserable...it just won't happen...I will do everything in my power to show him, I CAN do what I set out to do..as much as I love him...I love myself even more. I mentioned it to him and he acted like an ass but whatever, I done it one my own without his support last time...as a matter of fact I have done everything in this marriage myself without his support soooo I think I can manage. He has had such a attitude lately and an attitude like I OWE him something, even said something to me that stood out...he said something along the lines that he wanted a woman with good credit, I was like well you found the wrong one with me and he said ohh no I didnt you pay the bills don't you! What tha heck. I was in shock and he played it off like he was joking but he wasn't I am not that dumb BUT KARMA is NO fun and I am just waiting until one day when it hits him that I am OVER it...he doesnt have anyone now to baby him. His mom passed and his grandmother did too...I think he thinks I am his "safe" place BUT...I am TIRED of being his support system...at some point in my life I plan to have a life..I have wanted a family...NOT a ONE SIDED DRAMA filled bunch of bull shit!

As you can see...I am a bit pissy tonight....better get to bed for work...something he dont do!